Sometimes I wish I could fade into the darkness only because I can't find the light.
And I know there's no point in trying to find the light because there is no light and I was dumb enough to believe there was.
There used to be a bright light thanks to you, but you left me.
The second you left me that bright light faded and turned into cold black nothingness...
I blame myself for you leaving.
I blame myself for me not being good enough for you.
But, I know it's not my fault.
It's your fault for giving up on me so easily.
For leaving me because you thought you found someone better.
Sadly I still blame myself for everything.
For you leaving, my parents hating me, my friends hating me, the cutting, everything.
I'm never happy anymore because there's nothing to be happy about.
I just want to fade into the cold black nothingness with no one and nothing there.
Maybe then I'll finally be happy.